i really want this phone...

i cannot believe it's been 3 years since charlie passed. it's rare that a day goes by where i don't think about her. in some ways, it still doesn't seem real. the fact that i turn 30 next month makes me sad for all of the things that charlie didn't get to do. don't get me wrong, i can think of a ton of things she did that i probably won't ever do - it's just different. i can do these things, she'll never have the chance to get married, have a baby, turn 30 or know true love.

on the opposite side of the spectrum, i am grateful for everything she gave me. i know i've said it before but charlie truly was my number one fan. she believed in me when a lot of people did not. she praised my intelligence and approved of my wacky dmb touring ways. i miss her so much and i wish that she was going to be here to celebrate my 30th, just as she was for my lots of other milestones.

where ever you are chucky, i miss you!!!

ben harper's cover of "strawberry fields forever" is really friggin good.

lots going on but i actually feel like being positive so i won't drown you in the negative. i gave blood yesterday for the first time. i was really nervous at first because i hate needles but it was really easy and didn't hurt at all. actually, the finger prick was the most painful part...i also really appreciated the fact that all of the staff were so caring and concerned with my well being. and, i saved 3 lives, how great is that?

so yeah, that's my rant for the day...donate blood!

it's the most wonderful time of the year!

gingerbread lattes at starbucks.

this month seems to be going by too fast. probably because i am dreading what comes in 32 days.

i wouldn't say i am depressed about turning 30 but it definitely does not excite me. remember when 30 sounded so old? now i will have to start thinking about 40. the funny thing is that 40 doesn't sound old to me, anymore. we'll see how i feel about that in 10 years.

this is hilarious.

is it bad that i really want this?

guess who has FRONT row seats to john mayer in omaha? that would be me! thanks, sarah!