i cannot believe it's been 3 years since charlie passed. it's rare that a day goes by where i don't think about her. in some ways, it still doesn't seem real. the fact that i turn 30 next month makes me sad for all of the things that charlie didn't get to do. don't get me wrong, i can think of a ton of things she did that i probably won't ever do - it's just different. i can do these things, she'll never have the chance to get married, have a baby, turn 30 or know true love.

on the opposite side of the spectrum, i am grateful for everything she gave me. i know i've said it before but charlie truly was my number one fan. she believed in me when a lot of people did not. she praised my intelligence and approved of my wacky dmb touring ways. i miss her so much and i wish that she was going to be here to celebrate my 30th, just as she was for my lots of other milestones.

where ever you are chucky, i miss you!!!