yesterday was one of the best days i have had since i moved to kc.

john took me out on a date :) we went sight seeing around downtown kc, out to a really nice dinner at my new favorite resturant, yahooz, and to see mr. deeds. it was such a nice day, and such a great time. i honestly think it was the best time we've ever had together. it wasn't anything super romantic or dramatic, it was just a nice time. i miss days like that. when john used to come visit or vice versa and we'd just be together, not worrying about finances, or finding a job. we were just two kids in love.

ah...the olden days.

so apparently, i have a twin roaming around somewhere. some girl from the nancies message boards who met up with some of my friends at bonnaroo. five seperate people have said "i met this girl who looks exactly like you". although, esther has said, "only in the face". i'm not sure if that means i am bigger, or she is.

oh well, we all know there's no way there could be two of me. especially with my distinct personality. right?

bitches and ho's.

i almost (knock on wood) got into an accident in the parking structure. it's really a bitch, when i think about it. i leave my house at 7, to get here by 8, have to park in a parking structure 3 miles away from the company's campus, and then take a shuttle from the parking structure to the campus. keep in mind that i am being paid $11 an hour and that does NOT include my commute.

anyway, this morning i was turning the corner to park on in the last row of cars (so i can make my easy escape come 4pm) and this asshole comes zooming out of nowhere. almost hits me. fucker. seriously that parking structure is full of blind turns. i wonder how many accidents have occured in that area. probably a few. it scared the shit out of me. then the guy had the NERVE to flip me off when *i* had the right of way. damn asshole. i swear. the nerve of some people.

tonight john goes to his "brave" ceremony down at scout camp which means that it will be my first night in the apartment, alone. i'm a little nervous about it. no clue why. it's not like i've never been alone in an apartment before, right? i'm figuring that i will go to blockbuster and rent some sex in the city episodes and pig out. its nights like these that make me miss having girlfriends nearby, ya know?

attack of the crackheads, episode 1.

i don't know if i mentioned it before but the girls who live across the hall from us are literally crackheads. there are at least 3 girls who live there with at least once child, each. on a nightly basis, you can go into the hallway and they've recently sprayed some sort of air freshner to cover up whatever it is that they've been smoking in their apartment. on top of that, it wouldn't be a saturday morning without hearing them yell at their kids about how awful they are and how they don't get to do whatever it was they were going to do that day because they are so awful. the ironic thing is that our other neighbor is a COP. i have dubbed him bubba. he's about 6'2 and 400. but, that's a whole other story.

this morning, i go into the hall to leave for work and there are two huge trash bags outside their door, one which is tracking in ants. at that time, i ran back in to get john and show him. seriously, that is just sick. not only that but i don't want fucking ants. good lord, just because they are slobs, doesn't mean we need to be involved, right?

anyway, that's how my morning started.

other than that, we had a nice quiet night last night. went to the grocery store, went to whole foods to buy john a birthday cake, came home and ordered chinese and lounged for the night. john got several birthday calls and around 10, we finally turned in. we're boring old people, i tell ya.

i'm really looking forward to a quiet weekend. the past few weekends have been busy busy so i for one am acutally looking forward to a nice quiet weekend at home. we're thinking we may hit mr. deeds on saturday night but other than that, not much else is planned.

alright, i gots to get back to the bump and grind.

so, i'm watching this sorority life thing on mtv last night and realise that one of the girls on it, leslie, looks really familiar.

turns out she went with my friend talia and myself to see dmb in sacramento way back in 1999.

weird, huh?

and that's all from the peanut gallery.

i feel like i am in an episode of trading spaces.

there are people here painting all around my cube.

where's vern, damnit!

in other news, i have "naughty girls need love, too" by samantha fox in my head.

go figure.

oh, and one more thing. happy birthday to my sweetie. welcome to club 25. :)

yay! this is the best news i have heard all day. it surely adds a smile to my face :)

i had my first night out on the town in kc last night, it wasn't too bad with the exception of this asshole bartender who told me the drinks i wanted were "too frou frou" and that their bar was a beer bar. fucking asshole.

john's bday dinner went really well. in case you haven't heard yet (because he hasn't blogged) john got a play station 2. yeah, i know i am the fucking coolest girlfriend ever. he also got a few new shirts, a new pair of slacks and a new dop kit. it's a good thing birthdays only come once a year, ya know?

not much else to report. i'm anticipating a fairly dull week, which will be nice for a change.

ta ta!!

work shmerk.

temp jobs are fun.

well, at least they pay the bills, ya know?

this weekend should be some good times. it's john's birthday weekend so there's definitely some debaukary(heh.). we shall see. if you wanna know what he's getting, ask him. he's more than excited. :)

Which Rock Chick Are You?

the past few days have been really difficult for me. dealing with elise and marcus' breakup has been harder on me than i expected, for two reasons.

number one. this is the first time in my life where something drastic has happened to one of my friends and i haven't been there to spend time with them. elise flew home last weekend and has been hanging out with mel. it makes me feel better to know that mel is there for her but at the same time, i feel like there's so much more that i could be doing for her. we talk daily, and everytime i talk to her she sounds better and better by the phone call. i am still in shock and i wish there was something i could do to make things easier on her.

the second is that i am so afraid that the same thing will happen to me. that after time goes by maybe john will realise that he doesn't want to be with me. i guess it's probably natural to feel this way, seeing as though one of my very best friends is going through it but, john assures me that i have nothing to worry about. its just fucking scary. after four years you'd think you know someone. i guess sometimes you don't.

regardles, she's coming here next weekend to spend sometime with me ad john. it should be fun. :)

elise and marcus broke up.

apparently marcus felt that there were too many differences between the two of them to even fathom getting married.

it's four months before the date of the wedding and he doesn't want to get counseling or anything, he just ended it.

i really don't really know what else to say right now. i feel numb. i mean, she gave up EVERYTHING for him. moved to australia for a year, dropped a career in the bay area and moved to chicago to be with him where he had a job. never once did he mention or bring up that he had issues with some of her personality traits.

the worst part? he met someone else last weekend. someone whom he feels is more compatible.

needless to say, i am going to try and go to chicago next weekend.

the drive down to dallas was very beautiful. i was amazed at all the hillsides and greenery kansas and oklahoma have.

as usual, the house is chaotic. john is sharing a room with cody, and i am in my old room. that was the first thing my stepmom told me. "you know, just because you and john live together now, doesn't mean you can share a room here." heh.

the house is exactly the same with one exception. the addition of dutchess, the 4 week old kitten. she is adorable. a little on the loud side, but very cute. she took an istant liking to john, and vice versa.

more to come, i'm sure...

ok, so i am a total blog slacker. so much has been going on. last weekend was tonya and jim's wedding up in sioux falls. it was so much fun! the wedding was very nice and we had a ball. (minus the KILLER stomach ache i got from eating and geting up and dancing like a motherfucker.)

the apartment is coming along. the living room looks really good now, and the bedroom is being finished up as i type this.

tomorrow we leave for dallas for the rest of the week. i promise when i return i will blog, and blog well. :)

hi.

i'm in kansas.

it's fucking hot as hell.

anyway, the drive was nice. long but nice. i'm exhausted from redecorating and running around like a bloody chicken. well, sweaty chicken.

more tomorrow... :)