yay! blogger is back. i have so much to report. well, not so much but enough to keep you occupied for a few minutes.

not too much happened this weekend. my cookies came out well, thank you for asking.

tuesday i took my grandma to see ocean's 11. it was really cute. nana liked it too. so much in fact, that she fell asleep halfway through. as we were leaving the theater, we ran into my first love. it was so weird. i don't think that i have seen him in almost 3 years. it's weird because we talk and email about once a month but have really lost face to face contact. anyway, he didn't even recognize me. he said hi to my grandma, and looked at me and basically said, "oh shit!" heh. i love it when i get that kind of response from someone i haven't seen in a long time. we caught up briefly and said goodbye. it's weird. for so long he was such a part of my life and now, it's like he's nothing to me anymore. i remember how many tears i shed when things were finally over. what's it they say? the first cut is the deepest? i totally believed that at the time. i guess that i still have a bit of hatred for him since he did cheat on me. but, at least...oh nevermind.

would you like to hear what happened to me this morning while throwing out the garbage? sure you do!

so, i'm downstairs in the "garbage area" breaking down boxes and whatnot. all the sudden, i drop my keys INTO the garbage bin. and. it was FULL. so, i had to put my hands into a FULL garbage can. oh my god. it was so GROSS. needless to say, i scrubbed my hands like i've never scrubbed them before (mom would be proud!). and there you have it.

i realize the more i blog, the more things sound the same. nothing exciting has been happening lately. it's so sad. i read blogs from the very beginning and shit was happening all the time. now, nothing.

last night i was talking to john. earlier in the night, he had some friends over one of which was his brother tim. anyway, tim basically told john that our relationship isn't real and that he can't believe how serious we are when we never see each other. i don't think that john understood how much that hurt me. like a knife through my heart. seriously, my family (for the most part) has been nothing less than supportive. my parents (especially my dad) encourage me to spend as much time with him and do whatever i can to be with him. then, his brother, then his brother, the person who probably knows him best makes a comment like that. it hurt. i know that what john and i have is real. it sucks that some people can't see it the way that others do.