to elaborate more on my previous post...

john and i have been engaged for almost a year. it took us almost a week to set a date, moved it up a week and stuck to it.

basically, what i am trying to say is that i think it's super shitty that people have known about our wedding for nearly one year, have flaked on a promise. a promise to attend the biggest day of our lives.

maybe there's a difference between my promises and other's. when i make a promise to do something, i do it. i would never in a million years PROMISE someone that i would be somewhere if i knew, ultimately it may not happen. i would only promise if i knew that no matter what, i would be able to fulfill that promise. making sense so far? good.

now, some of you may read this and say "oh, she's over reacting", "maybe she misunderstood what so and so said", "things come up", etc. bottom line, don't make promises you can't keep. ESPECIALLY if right after you tell me you're not coming to the wedding you start to ramble about all of the dave shows your going to. seriously, go away. if dave is more important to you than a friendship, MY friendship, i don't want your "friendship" anyway.

quite a few people have disappointed me in the past week. people whom i considered to be good friends. people whom i kept on our invite list while others got cut because i *thought* their word meant something. but this is where it ends. i am not going to let it upset me anymore because i DO have incredible friends. friends who are traveling from the NETHERLANDS, california, minnesota, utah, missouri, kansas, and so on.

ANYWAY.

less than 4 weeks.

holy shit.