so it's only 4:15.

i am bored to death. sharon has not replied to my last email. i sent it OVER an hour ago. she sucks.

the one thing i dislike about my job, no matter what happens; i have to be here til 5. it really bugs me. i have friends who shall remain nameless, who leave when they feel like it. that's what i loved about my last job. i got to leave when i wanted. here, everything is set. set time to come in, set time to go to lunch, set time to go home.

everything is SET. i hate set-ness. it sucks. BIG time.

with all this time i have, i should blog about the things that are on my mind right now. i just feel like some of the things that i am thinking are far too personal to be discussing on my blog. all these things coming up that are in my head. things i don't discuss with anyone for fear that my actions will be judged. it's so fucking lame. i am a person, i have feelings, and THIS is my blog. what i choose to do is my prerogative . i can't prevent who i like, who i don't like and who i want to be with. these are feelings that are running wildly through my head.

i know what i want and i know i can't have it. so what's the next step?

i move on. set my sites on something else. something that will hopefully make me as happy as i have been the past few weeks.

i like being happy. and giddy. and girly. it makes me who i am. the past few months were incredibly hard for me. getting over the adam thing, losing my job, not being able to find a new job. these are all things that put me in a state of depression. a depression i never knew i was capable of having. i mean, it's me...PATTY POSITIVE. the life of the party, the girl everyone wants to talk to, the girl who is always smiling. i think i am finally back to that point.